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| You scored as Alia Atreides You are Alia Atreides. Despite feeling that you sometimes live in someone else?s shadow, you are powerful, a leader, but you can sometimes give into temptation.
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Friday, January 11, 2008
I am Alia Atreides
Thursday, January 10, 2008
drama
i just want to update my friendster blog. that's all.
i like what lorra, my blockmate, said awhile ago during our histo4. 'a man's happiest moment is his weakest'. i guess its indeed true. but then again, i really think it also applies to women.
the society is your worst enemy. my professor in KOM II said that. it's a bit funny that a teacher who teaches filipino had said something in english. but i liked it. our KOM prof rocks!
exams tomorrow on Nat Sci. practical exam on social dancing, exams on histo 4 and 5 on monday. hell.
recently, we just got the results of our exams last year. i passed it all. and yet it just passed. that's all. sometimes, it makes me realize how stupid i am.
and yet all of the sudden, the thought of being optimistic this whole new year somewhat cheered me up. i know my scores are not that high, and, compared to the ones i got in high school, its not a good one. and yet i must not wallow in despair. because i deserve it. i deserve the score. although its not that high, yet it's still considerable. i passed. but it doesn't mean i settle for that score. it's just that after the hardship, the sweat, i passed. i expect no one will understand me because my view of things is not the same as yours, as theirs. but i just want to stress that i deserve to be congratulated, to be happy, to be thankful of what i got without really settling for less.
i know someone very important in my life is disappointed on me. and yet, i deserve the right to say that i am also disappointed in her, in YOU! im disappointed because you dont understand me. you have become one of those persons that i hated. in your eyes i am a failure. and everytime you look at me i feel that i am. whenever i tell you how im so happy on passing this exam, you always say that its not worth celebrating, because i JUST passed.
you're mind has been contaminated with ideas you gain from people who are cripple-minded. they do not understand me, and so they continue to stress that i am useless, that i am a failure because i didn't make the right choices, that i didn't make any efforts, that i am so not good at academics, and that i am only good in making people sad. didnt they realize what they're doing to me?! thay humiliate me all the time. whenever they're around, i just dont feel comfortable. and i hate them. i hate them that i wanna curse them to death. dont they know the aftermath of their statements? yeah. they're just mere words. and yet they're more painful than being stabbed. they go right through my soul, totally devastating my whole self. and then there's you. who also mimicks their technique. who always make me feel that i am nothing but a big pain in the ass. and then there's one sad thing to note. the wounds brought by those 'mere' words could never be healed.
things were different two years ago. you supported me, in all my endeavors, not just financially, but emotionally and morally. those things provided me with wings for me to realize my dreams. those gave me confidence to try and to learn. those helped me to stand up every time i fail, everytime i make a mistake. but then again, 'those' things are gone now.
now, it feels like i am imprisoned. i am ashamed because my stupid decisions brought you, us here. in a deeper and much much more difficult ocean. you keep stating that i must not settle for anything else. and yet this, everything we own right now, every experience, almost everything, are just things which are less. and that bothers me all the time. i am deeply humiliated for all the wrong-doings i have done. i am sorry for bringing up more problems. but please understand that i am doing the best that i can for all of us. i know this is not my best, but i am trying to be my best. i continue to learn everyday. and there's only one remedy i know that could aid me aside from God, your understanding. your support, morally, emotionally, and financially. your love. i need you. you're my strenght. my inspiration. so please dont give up.
i like what lorra, my blockmate, said awhile ago during our histo4. 'a man's happiest moment is his weakest'. i guess its indeed true. but then again, i really think it also applies to women.
the society is your worst enemy. my professor in KOM II said that. it's a bit funny that a teacher who teaches filipino had said something in english. but i liked it. our KOM prof rocks!
exams tomorrow on Nat Sci. practical exam on social dancing, exams on histo 4 and 5 on monday. hell.
recently, we just got the results of our exams last year. i passed it all. and yet it just passed. that's all. sometimes, it makes me realize how stupid i am.
and yet all of the sudden, the thought of being optimistic this whole new year somewhat cheered me up. i know my scores are not that high, and, compared to the ones i got in high school, its not a good one. and yet i must not wallow in despair. because i deserve it. i deserve the score. although its not that high, yet it's still considerable. i passed. but it doesn't mean i settle for that score. it's just that after the hardship, the sweat, i passed. i expect no one will understand me because my view of things is not the same as yours, as theirs. but i just want to stress that i deserve to be congratulated, to be happy, to be thankful of what i got without really settling for less.
i know someone very important in my life is disappointed on me. and yet, i deserve the right to say that i am also disappointed in her, in YOU! im disappointed because you dont understand me. you have become one of those persons that i hated. in your eyes i am a failure. and everytime you look at me i feel that i am. whenever i tell you how im so happy on passing this exam, you always say that its not worth celebrating, because i JUST passed.
you're mind has been contaminated with ideas you gain from people who are cripple-minded. they do not understand me, and so they continue to stress that i am useless, that i am a failure because i didn't make the right choices, that i didn't make any efforts, that i am so not good at academics, and that i am only good in making people sad. didnt they realize what they're doing to me?! thay humiliate me all the time. whenever they're around, i just dont feel comfortable. and i hate them. i hate them that i wanna curse them to death. dont they know the aftermath of their statements? yeah. they're just mere words. and yet they're more painful than being stabbed. they go right through my soul, totally devastating my whole self. and then there's you. who also mimicks their technique. who always make me feel that i am nothing but a big pain in the ass. and then there's one sad thing to note. the wounds brought by those 'mere' words could never be healed.
things were different two years ago. you supported me, in all my endeavors, not just financially, but emotionally and morally. those things provided me with wings for me to realize my dreams. those gave me confidence to try and to learn. those helped me to stand up every time i fail, everytime i make a mistake. but then again, 'those' things are gone now.
now, it feels like i am imprisoned. i am ashamed because my stupid decisions brought you, us here. in a deeper and much much more difficult ocean. you keep stating that i must not settle for anything else. and yet this, everything we own right now, every experience, almost everything, are just things which are less. and that bothers me all the time. i am deeply humiliated for all the wrong-doings i have done. i am sorry for bringing up more problems. but please understand that i am doing the best that i can for all of us. i know this is not my best, but i am trying to be my best. i continue to learn everyday. and there's only one remedy i know that could aid me aside from God, your understanding. your support, morally, emotionally, and financially. your love. i need you. you're my strenght. my inspiration. so please dont give up.
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